Hum k iss ehed mein jeene ka gumaan rakhte hain...

Ugly Realities that we either don't want to know or we are not allowed to know...

1. The donors conference was actually a LOANERS conference! ( the World is loaning money to Pakistan to counter the situation in the earthquake stricken areas!

2.America - our ally?! think again!!!

3.More than 5,000 NATO and U.S military forces are in Pakistan in earthquake region which is nearest to the Nuclear Assets of Pakistan...( wonder what they are doing there?! and wonder why aren't we informed?!)

4. Why Americans are after Iran for their nuclear technology when they are signing pacts with India to help them build nuclear weapons?!

5. When Iranian Prime minister has said that they are using nuclear technology to produce power are being convicted of making nuclear wepaons?! The former Indian president said that if they would have to use nuclear wepaons against Pakistan, they will use it, is still trusted and being helped by America?!

6. Why just target Muslim World for having nuclear assets while India,Israel and other western countries including America are enjoying the Nuclear Technology..( dont tell me that Muslims are not responsible.. we've seen the US's responsible behaviour since sept 11. We know that innocent civillians are targetted both in Afghanistan and Iraq)

7. Why arent American's apologizing for attacking Bajuar Agency and killing innocent people, including women and children?! Is Pakistan ever going to take a stand for such harsh treatment against U.S?!

8.Why aren't Muslims doing ANYTHING to help their brothers around the world when Westerners are actuallly hunting them down?! Aren't we supposed to be a protective wall for the weak?! Or are we soo engrossed in this material world and worldly benefits that we don't want to see their sufferrings?!

Though the list goes on and on and on BUT then... this is just the beginning...

Pain has an element of blank;
It cannot recollect
When it began, or if there were
A day when it was not.
It has no future but itself,
Its infinite realms contain
Its past, enlightened to perceive
New periods of pain.


-Emily Dickinson

Back To School!!!

Okay, i feel reallly lazy and tired! seriously, after these long vacations, where nights and days lost their true meanings, who wants to wake up early and drag herself to universtiy?! But it's good that we're back, atleast my mum's going to be happy that we sleep at night and don't have a reason to sleep till later afternoon!
It seems as if aliens reside in our university as newcomers are what we see throughout the day! Just walking across the lobby takes half an hour, you get to meet someone or the other you really know and they inquiring about ur result, timetable, new teachers( mostly how lucky or unlucky we are to have such and such teachers! the secret: everyone loves the corporate staff!! we miss u missss!!!)
The first class of Literary Forms- u miss your 1st yr's teachers. and somehow or the other you see your grades drowning in the gutter even before you enter your class! I hope we do get good marks in this year as well. The econ teacher is still the same, that's what i've heard BUT.. I don't want HIM!!!
Anyway, the best thing about going back is, you can have as many eik-rupay-kay-samosay as you want! Chemistry-ki-chaat, Irtiqa's tea parties and long walks to get to the silver jubilee gate that you'll hate in summers.. OH! yeah! the washrooms are being renovated! cool! (Irtiqa, I'm sorry but how could i not mention the WASHROOMS!!!lol)
Back to university!! Life sure is beautifull!

Traffic Jams

Call me Crazy but I love traffic jams... the long drives that become truely frustrated for my brother, who's driving, but they are a dream come true for me. Just imagine sitting on the back seat, not worried what the world around you is upto.. not paying heed to what ur siblings are talking about.. having all the seat to yourself, looking outside yet not looking outside making your eyes seem to be distant from the world in which pain and misery is lasting. The eyes lost in the dreaminess of the creation that the poet creates with his poetry, but the world a mind can create is soo much more beautiful in every sense of the word, so much more fulfilling. It seems as if the time has frozen.. nothing's moving, yet YOUR world is progressing, yet the seeds that u once sow are blossoming into beautiful flowers, and yet you learn to live again as an innocent child that has just learnt how to say "mama".
Taffic moves and you reach home, the world you once created sitting in that car is lost but then you will learn to comb a world of your own again, creating all those imagery in your mind again with a different perspective and ofcourse with a different creative line!

Past

The depressing self-pitying habit may lead to ur past.. remembering moments that weren't a part of the perfectness that u always wanted in life..Why is it hard to remember the happiest moments yet so hard to forget the dimmest, depressing moments.. specially the moments when you've lost someone.. the moments that remind you that things never go the way you want them to be.. how many times do we regret so many things in life.. but we fail to realize that there was never any other way, our life was supposed to be the way we lived it.. the maybe-s may have been there but to regret.. to regret is like you are questioning ur past.. the past that cannot be changed.. Things do not happen without our Lord's permission.. why question?! We do have our say in things but then there are soo many things that ALlah decides for us in our best interest.. Hope Iwont regret being ... so many things that I am.. so many things that i've decided to do.. so many things i am not doing..
Ending ona happy note.. life's like that.. enjoy doing whatever you do( in bounds.. ) and have fun!

Flashbacks!!!

Get together... hmmm... brought back so many happy memories from school life.. all those wonderful days, beautiful chilly mornings.. and HOMEWORKS that we used to do in the recess... lol.. all those stupid stuff we did.. remembering all those childish things we wrote to each other, even those stupid autographs that meant soo much but now shows how immaturely innocent we were..lol.( somehow immature doesn't fit here.. we weren't immature but our sentiments were very innocent and childish)
The friends that still mean sooo much though everyone of us is at a different institute.. *sigh*.. I actually what life is from them.. these friends actually taught me how to move ahead in life leaving the Dark and Mysterious self behind...lol.
I guess life has to go on.. u meet some, stick with some and then end up with some.. but then i'm glad i came across all those amazing people in my life.. it wouldn't have been a LIFE without them..

Lost World

Is it? I mean are we reallly living in a lost world?! just think about it... people don't have any idea where they are heading.. they have lost their values... their thoughts do not go beyong the material world.. the spiritually chaste class is working for money!!.. they don't have a clue to their own identity... they use words of which they don't even know the meaning.. the "cool" factor involves every immoral thing or state a human could achieve.. If u wear clothes that show almost all ur body, u r the fashion DIVA!

I guess we are the lost generation not Generation Y.. Well.. all we can hope for is that people may realize what is the purpose of their lives.. A little directed thinking can do wonders!!!

AAAHHH!!! such optimism.. naeema sure is going to laugh on me!!!